We have cleavage! 21 of 25 are fertilized!

Yesterday morning we got great news, of the 25 retrieved, 23 were mature and 21 fertilized!! Yesterday, on Day1, this is what the 21 looked like:

As early as 12 hours after ICSI, the fertilized egg begins to display two pronuclei in the center; one pronucleus from the male, and the other one from the female. The genetic material is also visible in both pronuclei.

This morning, another promising phone call.  All 21 reached "cleavage" stage, and  this morning, this is what our 21 little embryos look like:

Later today, this is what they are supposed to look like as they undergo another set of cleavage.  They  must get it from their mother.

Tomorrow morning we will get another report on Day 3 with grading.  Then we won't get another call until Day 5, where they should have all passed the morula stage (Day 4) and be entering blastocyst stage.  Right now, judging by the stats from last time, I am hopeful that 10 out of 21 will make it to Day 5 blastocyst stage and will be able to be biopsied on Wednesday for transfer on Thursday.  The doc said there would be a possibility that they all don't make it to Day 5 in time, in which case they would biopsy Day 6, freeze all of them that made it to blastocyst (that's the only time they will freeze them) and then we would have to wait another cycle and do a FET (frozen embryo transfer).  I really really really do not want to do that and risk losing them in the freeze/thaw cycle but I keep telling myself I will follow doctor's orders and they know best.  But it is SO HARD not to be in control.  I just want to run up there and say  "put all 21 in and may only the fittest survive" but I know that's not the answer.  I just really really want a transfer this cycle.  But it doesn't really matter what I want, I'm trying to do a better job of letting go and letting God take over, giving it to Him.  Easier said than done.