I can't believe it is the middle of summer already...time is flying. Good thing, because I am SO EXCITED about this next IVF cycle! I started my Lupron last Tuesday and just took my last BCP this evening. I hate these BCPs...there is something different about the one my doc prescribed me this time...my boobs are killing me and this has never happened to me before on my previous pills. I just can't wait for it to be over...if I'm going to have sore boobs it better be because I am pregnant! That is the only acceptable time! I think the Lupron is making me a bit moody, but other than that, no real change in my symptoms from last time.
I have been doing everything in my power to distract myself from the cycle to make time go by faster, including baking everything under the sun. M recently had to purchase a treadmill because he has gained so much weight due to (among other things) my baking frenzy. This weekend, I made these:
http://annies-eats.net/2010/06/02/cookies-and-cream-cupcakes/
Oh. my. goodness. They are as amazing to look at as they are to eat. And they help my sore boobs just a little :-)
This Friday, July 8, is my first suppression monitoring appointment, and I assume I'll be starting Bravelle that evening or on Saturday. I will continue to listen to my circle + bloom IVF cycle mind/body program as I did last cycle and am going to try to stay as positive and relaxed as possible! There is definitely much less anxiety with this cycle simply because I know exactly what is going to (i.e. supposed to) happen. Oh man, I hope I didn't just jinx myself...we keep praying for the same meds response as last time, the potential for 15 more embryos and God willing another one or two "normals" to implant.
I went back on Facebook recently and was surprised at everything I have missed in the past couple of months since I haven't really been on (as per my FB ban post). I am amazed at people that I saw making wedding announcements earlier this year before my first IVF cycle noting that they are now expecting later this year or early next year. I think I will go back to my self imposed ban...and while I'm at it, I should also probably stop going to the beach until maybe after this cycle is over. I was at the beach the past couple of weekends and am simply astounded at the number of unfit parents. Obviously, I am judging by surface appearances/behaviors only, but when I see a 300 lb mother in a string bikini dragging her small child down the boardwalk, screaming "hurry up" with a cigarette hanging out of her mouth and a huge bucket of boardwalk fries...I can't help but judge. If you say you haven't judged those people you are either (1) not human or are (2) lying.
Alright, I digress. Here's to moving forward with blinders on- trying every day to be a better person and not to judge.
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