I got a promotion at work on Friday, effective at the end of the month. Then I go on maternity leave for 4 months....and when I get back to work I expect that I'll hit the ground running again. Which makes me very very nervous on how this will impact me as a new mommy. But I am trying not to dwell on the problems or expectations that the new position will bring, and I will focus my attention to the baby. I was proud of my promotion for about 1 hour, then it was back to worrying in true mommy fashion.
The last two weeks, again, like the two weeks before this, have been a balancing act to say the least. I've again been working 50-55 hour work weeks (down from the previous 65-70 hour work weeks in April) and I am reaching the end of my rope. I don't sleep that well, partially because of the constant trips to the bathroom and partially because now BOTH hands are numb and sleeping with the numbness has become so painful that it wakes me up. I had a slight nervous breakdown mid week but with enough sleep this weekend I am holding it together for now.
Two Sundays ago my mom had a shower for me, and this past Sunday my mother in law had one for me. Both were so beautiful and everyone was so generous --sometimes I wonder if I even deserve it. My mom's shower I got all the big things I needed- stroller, car seat, swing, etc.- and she did an amazing job. She had it at her house and had the CUTEST decorations and did most of the food herself. I am so blessed to have such generous people in my life....though I will always wonder what makes people ignore the baby registry and just go off and do their own thing. Come on people, the registry is there for a reason!
I also had a bit of an annoyance last week when I asked my doctor when I was supposed to get my Rhogam shot. He was surprised when he saw that I hadn't received it at 28 weeks. So of course I had to rush and make an appointment at the hospital to get it- that should have been enough for me to quit my doctor and go running towards the midwife practice at the Birth Center. However, I did not. I made the decision, after talking to a girlfriend that just went medication free at the hospital two weeks ago, that I would stick with the hospital. They were supportive of her decision to go without an epidural and they did not give her any trouble. I think that is good enough for me. At least this time around. We'll see if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant again through IVF I will consider the birth center next time. I just kept thinking that the worst thing that could happen to me at the hospital would be a C- section; the worst thing that could happen to me at the Birth Center is that we could lose him or lose me.
So after both showers, I'm in complete nest and organization mode. And I still don't feel like I've even made a dent in the organization I want to do in his room. That's why this coming Sunday, Mother's Day, I get a complete day all to myself to do organization and go to Babies R Us with M and finish our registry. I am beside myself with excitement!! Saturday I have a bridal shower and then am going to visit my mom for a bit while M is at a Phillies game. Then Sunday it's all about the nursery!
As far as pregnancy symptoms and feelings, I think the most annoying one by far is the numb hands. Now that both are numb it's really hard to write and type, and when I sleep on one or both of my arms it is very painful (feels like burning or someone ironing your hand!). My feet are getting better with the swelling, and although I get up twice a night to go to the bathroom, it's still manageable. My belly button hasn't popped yet and I don't have one single stretch mark on my stomach, so that is a win. I need a hair cut desperately (getting one next week) and I finally got a mani/pedi last week, which was a long time coming! I have to remember to pamper myself in these last few weeks because I might not get these moments back again for a long time...
The clock is ticking and I'm feeling the pressure to get stuff done! It is so exciting and I can't wait until he is here.
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