Chorionic Villi Sampling (CVS) and 12 weeks

I am 12 weeks today.  I am petrified.  I am tired and scared and confused.    I am also the mom of a healthy toddler and I must remind myself of that every day. It has been a struggle to admit that I am pregnant in spite of my growing frame. I look as pregnant as 12 weeks as I did at 16 or 18 weeks with Luke.  It's amazing to me how fast I'm showing this time, which makes thinking about it that much harder.

I was scheduled for CVS testing this past Thursday at 11w 5d. I went in, saw the genetic counselor and filled out all the paperwork.  My bladder was full to the brim and the tech did my ultrasound.   The baby looked great and was measuring right on target with a great heartbeat.  The little bugger was bouncing around in there like crazy! It was a great sight to see.   The doctor came in and scanned me himself.   That should have been the end of it- my placenta is not near my cervix so they were going to have to go in abdominally.  However, he mentioned that he saw some blood clotting behind my placent alike there had been a tear that was healing. He gave me the option to go forward that day or I could postpone a week and see if it healed because the risk of miscarriage slightly increases if there is evidence of a placenta tear.  I of course took that option because I know rash decisions are bad decisions.  So all that time off work wasted, and even more time to think about the CVS that I didn't really want to have done in the first place.

So now I'm stuck with a couple of options when I go back on Thursday-
1)  I still have a placenta tear and don't go through with it and have a baby with an issue
2) Everything is fine, I get CVS then have a miscarriage with a perfectly normal pregnancy
3) I have a placenta tear, do go through with it, and have a miscarriage with a normal pregnancy
4) I have a placenta tear, have CVS and have a baby with an issue
5) Do nothing, have no issues

I am at a loss.  I am so confused. I have no idea what I want to do.  Most of me just wants to let go and let this be what it's going to be.  We will do what we have to do and be the family we have to be.  But then the other part of me wants to know so I can prepare.  Or terminate.  Or not.  This whole thing is ridiculous.  But then again, we asked for it didn't we? When we play with fire and do irresponsible things such as this.  Knowing full well the horrible outcome that could be.

  Or...the miracle that could be?