I look like I have a very large Easter egg in my belly :-)
And to say that I love him is a huge understatement. This little man rules my heart already and he's not even here yet. We have been waiting for him so long...my brother in law said it perfectly when he said that he feels like I've been pregnant for 2 years. Because really, he is right. June 2012 will be two years since we came back from Hawaii and decided to "try". We had no idea what was in store for us.
This time of year also reminds me that last year was our big decision to go through with IVF. We got the results of my chromosome inversion and promptly took a getaway trip to Curacao in March 2011. It was during that trip that we decided to move forward with the scariest decision of our lives. I am so glad we did and took action when we did because only God knows how much longer we would have had to wait to get a normal baby!
Got our cord blood kit last week, so that decision has been put to rest. But there is one big decision that I've been putting off- the birth center vs. hospital decision. I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday and an ultrasound this coming Friday through the hospital. After that and before the end of the month I have to make a serious decision about where we want to give birth. Last night I had a crazy dream that we ended up birthing in a hospital and I hated it so much, but was glad we were there because he had a fever and had to go to the NICU to get special support. The whole time I was there the nurses were so mean to me- they had me with a lactation consultant and left me with her for hours without my baby, and I had to go find him on my own because they didn't tell me he was in the NICU. Who knows what that dream means. I was hoping I could use my dream as a sign but I think my subconscious is sending me mixed messages....I've been practicing my stretching and sitting on the birth ball in preparation for a potential birth center birth, though. This is the last really big decision that has to be made before birth- I am so confused.
Reading this again as I am in 30 weeks of my current pregnancy. The dream I had in this posting actually came true, as with Luke I gave birth in a hospital, he had a fever, and they had to take him to the NICU. Maybe I can tell the future??
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