Tuesday, September 27, 2011

CD 18 - Go Time!

Oh thick lining, how I’ve missed you! Getting good news today from the RE that my lining is up to 8.7mm almost combats the fact that someone brought their 2 year old to the fertility doctor’s office. The insensitivity of people never ceases to amaze me. I was so prepared for bad news- I guess we are all trained to expect the worst with our “situation”- but today we are one step closer to transfer. I am excited and hopeful, but also petrified of another let down. I will try to push down the fear for now because I have been told it isn’t going to get me anywhere ;-) FET is scheduled for the morning of Monday, October 3 and it is an understatement to say that I’m ready to do this. Tomorrow I start Medrol and PIO, and am continuing the oral estrogen pills and patches until transfer.

The past week or so has been interesting- there’s a first time for everything. This was the first time I’ve ever had to actually put an estrogen pill where no estrogen pill should ever have to go. And the best part is, they are blue, so the next day it looks like I’m leaking blue raspberry Jolly Ranchers. Ahh… nothing like the joys of a FET cycle...


On a side note, I received yet another email from a high school girlfriend informing me that she is expecting her second baby in April 2012. Her first one was born when we were all 28 and now she’ll have her second one when we are all 32. A perfect four years apart and perfectly planned and executed with no issues- she’ll probably have a boy this time because she already has a girl and things just work out so PERFECTLY for some people. Fabulous. Wonderful. Ugh. My self pity is overwhelming and if I talk to anyone about what I’m feeling right now I’ll sound like an ungrateful b*tch. I appreciate God’s irony and timing of things.

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