28 weeks- the Holidays

The holidays are upon us!  This time is going so fast- a combination of Thanksgiving being so late and the stress of work I suppose.  I went for my 7 month appointment this week and glucose test- happy to report my sugar is in the 90s (I think > 120 is gestational diabetes?) but I have low iron.  So I have to take iron supplements and work on my veggie intake.  This is kicking M into high gear for making me drink green smoothies.  Other than that, the appointment was uneventful and that's how I like it.  Oh, I did get my 28 week Rhogam shot which is always fun :)

The baby furniture got delivered this week also, and it looks awesome!  It's the same baby's dream furniture that Luke has, except a different color- cinnamon instead of espresso.  There is one piece missing that they expect to deliver in January, but I did spend the day setting up the nursery as much as I could. I feel the nesting urge happening again but then again, I feel like my life is one big nesting extravaganza.

I am also exhausted.  Now that I am in my third trimester, I am so slow and really can't pick Luke up at all because of sharp pains in my belly and back.  By 8pm every night I am spent and can hardly keep my eyes open.  I don't run after Luke all day, being at work and everything, but he has been getting up so early- between 530 and 630am- and screams the entire time until I come get him. So I'm trying to get ready for work and it's just very anxiety inducing and stressful from the time we wake up until he gets dropped off at school at 815am.  Then don't get me started on my stressful work day- jam packed full of meetings and bullsh*t.  By the time we get home he is out of his mind and all he wants is "up up" and I feel so badly that I can't pick him up at all.  It makes me feel sad and guilty all at the same time.  God help me, but all I want to do is get in bed and lay down.  I don't want to do ANYTHING.  I am sitting here in bed right now typing this at 630am while M is downstairs with a Luke who is raring to go.  Just so lethargic and tired.  I didn't know it was going to be this hard with the second, thank goodness I have M.  I know he has a lot of projects going on and I try to let him work on them while I watch Luke on the weekends, but I don't know how much longer I can do that.  I love spending time with Luke but all day long on a snowy day where we can't go outside drives me absolutely bonkers.  I am the worst mom right now.  I just feel like I want to focus on me and no one else and that's just not how a mom is supposed to feel, right?  I'm so selfish.  What is wrong with me?

Wow, I just realized for a holiday post, my last rant is downright depressing :)

This is the time of year I should be thanking the good Lord that I have  beautiful family, wonderful life and a job in a time where so many don't have even one of these things much less all three.  I am so blessed in so many ways, I can't forget that. I must not ever forget that.

28 week belly pictures below- photography by Pepop because I got stood up from my photographer..