25 weeks- Prayers to my friend J

Its things like this that make me recognize how lucky I am to be at 25 weeks.  I don’t take one single day of this pregnancy for granted.  J, a friend of mine, has been through two miscarriages and what looks to be like one failed round of IVF so far.  She had a positive beta and over the last couple of weeks things are looking more and more bleak that this will be a viable pregnancy.  They weren’t able to detect an embryo on the ultrasound and her HcG levels are falling.  She thinks pretty soon she will miscarry and doesn’t know what the next steps should be.  I have been there and hate that feeling- my heart hurts for her.  And today, thousands of teenage girls will get pregnant so we can see shows like “16 and Pregnant” and “Teen Mom”. 

My main man is a kicking machine and this Thursday I have a doctor’s appointment.  Not sure if I’ll be doing the glucose test in the next couple of weeks or what, but I’m dreading it.  I really hope I don’t have gestational diabetes or high blood pressure at this point.  It would kill my dreams of natural childbirth.  We have our first prenatal doula appointment Sunday March 25 and I cannot wait to start this process.   I am trying to keep positive about labor and birth and release control.  But it has not been easy to get into that mindset.  I’m almost finished the last of my birth books and will move on to some child psychology and “Happiest Baby on the Block”.   We have scheduled some work on the house in the next couple of weeks because we are trying to get all those last minute things finished before the end of May.  We got a call from our furniture store last week and our nursery furniture is going to be delayed by a month, which would put it here at the end of April.  No big deal, that’s why we ordered it early.

I am feeling especially thankful today for our gift, and every day that he is moving around in there is a happy day.  I have no complaints about pregnancy. I wish everyone could appreciate it the way those of us dealing with infertility appreciate it.   I am in no rush for this pregnancy to end.