12 weeks

I am so close. I don’t even want to say anything for fear that I will jinx it. But I am one week away from being officially through my first trimester. I am so blessed to be in this place I just can’t even believe it. I thank the Lord every day that I am able to carry this baby. I pray that I will continue to be able to carry him to term and everything will go just as I had imagined. The first part of this journey has not gone as planned (as most things in our life often don’t) but am hopeful that this second leg of the race will be successful!


I have officially started to wear the Bella Band that I bought for my pre-pregnancy pants. It is so comfortable to not use buttons! I think work people are starting to suspect, though. I am starting to move beyond the “just had a few too many beers” phase. I try to sit at my desk and not walk around a lot so I can push my chair in all the way to hide my belly. But I don’t want to hide it! I want to show it off for the entire world to see!! Nausea is gone, but the weird appetite is not. If I could have it my way, I’d have pizza for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Unfortunately (or fortunately), I live with a nutrition nazi who makes sure I get ample vitamins and a balanced diet every day – or he shames me. In a loving way, of course. I am really moody, lot of ups and downs. But I am trying to focus more on the ups because this is what I’ve been waiting for my entire life! I am living the dream that I had hoped for and I want to enjoy every moment of it. So many people can’t experience this and I thought for sure I was going to be one of them. But by the miracle of modern science and the Lord, here we are.

I have an appointment with my new OBGYN next Thursday. I switched OBGYN’s last week to be able to deliver at Christiana Hospital in DE instead of Chester County Hospital. Christiana has private rooms and a nationally ranked NICU in case of emergencies. Also, it is a little bit closer for us than riding those back roads to West Chester. I chose an OBGYN affiliated with the hospital, who also happens to be affiliated with a Birth Center in the same area. He was actually trained to be a midwife but became a doctor instead and I am EXTREMELY interested in hearing that story. He’s ranked very well on all of the doctor rating websites so I figured I couldn’t lose. I am intrigued by Birth Centers and natural, un-medicated births in general. The fact that everyone is telling me I can’t do it or won’t want to do it makes me want to do it more. To prove to them they are a bunch of p’s. I mean, my own mother gave birth to two babies naturally… and a 7 pounder and a 9 pounder no less! If she can do it, I have no doubt that I can do it, too. The Birth Center near me accepts patients up to 32-34 weeks so I have time to decide, and in the meantime I’m going to be cared for by the doctor. Stay tuned I guess.