7w3d..mixed reviews

This morning was even worse than last Friday.  I had two full breakdowns before I got to the doc's office. But we got through it today and will forge on to another week!  Heartbeat is at 140bpm up from 120bpm last week.  Our little nugget has doubled in size and I saw the heartbeat flickering away. 

  

I told the u/s tech that for the past couple of days I have had bloating and pain in my back.  She located some follicles that apparently had burst and we could see the fluid around them.  They said it wasn't a big deal and I was just glad it wasn't the ectopic pregnancy I had been dreading.  

Everything looked great according to the doctor, no bleeding around the pregnancy, significant growth and strong heartbeat.  He asked how I was feeling, and I told him about the nausea, bloating, fatigue and spotting during the last week. He seemed surprised at the spotting but said it was probably from my cervix not from the pregnancy. I should have known there would be an issue when the nurses called me today with results from my bloodwork- they never call if all is well.  They said that my HcG is around 92,000 which is a good, stable number, but my progesterone had dropped significantly from the prior appointment.  What I didn't tell them, though, is that I had stopped taking my progesterone shots one week ago.  It was stupid and reckless, but I couldn't take one more shot in my butt.  I thought if everything was right, my body would take over and do what it was supposed to do.  Unfortunately, I was mistaken and as of today I am taking all the shots in my butt one person can handle.  I will never divert from their instructions again, and I am completely freaking out at the thought of losing this pregnancy.  My next appointment is Tuesday morning to check my progesterone levels again, and since I'm being a good little patient, hopefully they are up.