I started my cycle on Saturday 9/10 and left a message for the IVF nursing team to let them know. This morning when I spoke to them, I scheduled my first monitoring appointment for Weds, 9/21. Today I am supposed to start estrogen pills (Estrace- 2mg) 3x per day, Vivelle Dot Estrogen Patch, Doxycycline 2x per day, Baby Asprin, and Prenatal Vitamins. They are getting me started on the estrogen early to avoid the issue we had last time of no developing follicle by Day 22 or 23 and thin lining. I am hopeful that my body will respond to the medicine as it always does and help me to get ready for a FET. I counted my days (as always) and if all goes well I could have a transfer by the last week in September, prior to Friday 9/30!! I am still feeling pretty good about transferring two embryos, but we’ll see.
It feels like a lot of babies were born in the last couple of weeks. I have blocked so many Facebook news feeds that I basically only get updates from 10% of my friends (and I don’t even have that many to begin with). My cousin, my ex-coworker, and a girlfriend from high school all had babies within the past two weeks. Block, block , block. Other acquaintances/friends are announcing second and third pregnancies. Block.
The only thing that keeps me from going insane is the fact that two of my girlfriends are recently engaged and are anticipating summer 2012 weddings. I am in one of them, and will hopefully be attending the other (assuming it’s in the continental U.S.). That is getting me pumped for 2012 and giving me something to look forward to should this FET (and subsequent FETs/IVFs) not work out. The wedding of my best girlfriend, the one I am in next August, makes me feel the happiest. She went through the same thing I am going through, on some parallel level, with dating/marriage. The thing I love about her the most is that she KNEW she was going to get married. She didn’t know how it would happen, when, or why, but she believed in it and knew it would happen someday. She never gave up and when she couldn’t stand to go on one more blind date or fix- up, she did it anyway because you don’t move forward if you don’t try. I know you might think I’m crazy for using this as an analogy to IVF, but in some ways, it is sort of the same. It’s something you want so badly that you’ll do whatever it takes to make IT happen. You will mourn for IT if you don’t get IT. You will obsess about IT and IT will over-take your life if you let IT.
I have learned from her that when you can’t stand it anymore you just keep trying. And if things don’t work out perfectly, you still keep trying. At this point, that’s enough for me.
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